A stroke of Insight

I can change my thoughts

As I ponder my evening's activity I am engulfed by the sense of helplessness at my present personal condition.  No amount of escapism via television watching, or romance reading can eradicate the real necessity of $800 for the procurement of school books for both boys.  Neither can any amount of complaining remove the fact that they will suffer -  both academically and socially if they do not get those books, pronto.

And complain indeed I can.  I mean how in the hell do you put children in private school when you can NOT afford it; when every mundane activity deforms into an albatross of a financial burden that I have to shoulder because I happened on not one, but two occasions, to make love with you sans protection??!! 

Again, complaining will do no good.  I can only remember all that I am learning, all that I am striving to assimilate into my chromosomal structure: That  I live in an abundant Universe, and that even before I ask, my God has answered.  I have experienced time and time again when my faith has been all the currency I've needed in the realm I live in: God's kingdom.  I may not have had physical dollars, or connections in high places, yet have seen God orchestrate events and situations to meet my needs miraculously,  multitudinously.

So what is different with these needs I face today? $800 for books?!  A car?!??  Being a bonafide, regularly scheduled parent??   Though indeed all of these will drown me in a sea of helplessness if I even for a single moment, give myself the dubious luxury of forgetting Whose I AM, and therefore, Who I AM!  So just that quickly, I will need to rein these thoughts in if I'm to come out on the victorious side of this condition.

I have work to do.  And as much as my faith has been my currency, it is my belief that I am to begin manifesting tangible wealth because being rich matters. There's too much good to be done in this world that requires tangible, touchable, real money. I do not want my thoughts to predicate my financial lack.  I mean can you imagine me saying and being happy with saying that I am causing me to be broke ---  by my thoughts!??

"Both poverty and riches are the offspring of thought"  so writes Napoleon Hill in his timeless classic, Think and Grow Rich.

an excerpt:

When the English poet W.C. Henley wrote the prophetic lines, "I am the Master of my Fate, I am the Captain of my Soul," he should have informed us that the reason we are the Masters of our Fate, the Captains of our Souls is because we have the power to control our thoughts.

He should have told us that the ether in which this little planet floats, in which we move and have our being, (any Bible students, here? Acts 17:28) is a form of energy moving at an inconceivably high rate of vibration, and that the ether is filled with a form of universal power which adapts itself to the nature of the thoughts we hold in our minds; and influences us, in natural ways, to transmute (change in outward structure or looks) our thoughts into their physical equivalent.

If the poet had told us of this great truth, we would know why it is that we are the Master of our Fate, the Captains of our Souls.  He should have told us, with great emphasis, that this power makes no attempt to discriminate between destructive and constructive thoughts, that it will urge us to translate into physical reality thoughts of poverty just as quickly as it will influence us to act upon thoughts of riches.

He should have told us, too, that our brains become magnetized with the dominating thoughts we hold in our minds.

By means with which no one is familiar, these "magnets" attract to us the forces, the people, the circumstances of life which harmonize with the nature of our dominating thoughts.

He should have told us that BEFORE we can accumulate riches in great abundance, we must magnetize our minds with intense desire for riches, that we must become "money conscious" until the desire for money drives us to create definite plans for acquiring it.

But, being a poet, and not a philosopher, Henley contented himself by stating a great truth in poetic form, leaving those who followed him to interpret the philosophical meaning of his lines.

Lesson & a taste of fear

I am so excited!  Discovered a blog entry I'd written on December 15, 2006.  It is now over two years later and my, the changes, the mindset shift I have endured.  It's kinda amazing.  Today I attended an AMAZING meditation session where a guest speaker presented his experience with manifestation, and with creating the life that we want. My entry was very similar to what he talked about.  And while it was written that long ago, I am NOW, two years later seeing the fruits of what I'd written about THEN:

I am ready to move forward - to fully develop this artistic aspect of me I've denied for so long. For very many years I have seen, encountered, people entrenched in living their dreams.  I have felt jealous because somehow in my life I believed,  or told myself that while everyone else could,  I couldn't live my dreams.  I thereby subconsciously made choices and developed resentments;  creating an existence with which I was extremely dissatisfied. Self imposed mental imprisonment.

No more.

I will surround myself with people who are living their lives true to who they are. It is my hope that by accepting and releasing them to be themselves, I will be giving myself permission to likewise be true TO my self, to live MY best life, whatever I deem that to be.

Today I consciously choose the beginning of the rest of my life.. I am co-creater of my existence, along with The First Creator, who created me, and totally WANTS me to do that which I'VE wanted to do ALL of my life--- TO CREATE! The insanity of it is I HAVE been creating, knowingly or not, I have been creating. It's time to now create that which I've desired all along.

What I desire shall be.

I know this can sound so "woo woo out there" for one uninitiated, but promise to keep an open mind.  The gist of what the speaker talked about was a reinforcement that we do create our realities.  We manifest or create continually; but as a result of fear, we continually create that which causes us misery.  Because face it, we are dissatisfied, miserable, unhappy, with so much:  our jobs, our relationships, our financial outlooks.  You name it, we are unhappy about it, yet we continue to create or manifest it.

He also mentioned that the greatest motivations common to humans is that we go to great lengths to pursue pleasure, and avoid pain.   In his observations, humans pursue the misery because they believe it is less painful than pursuing the good.

Now a large part of why we are leery to create greater, better realities is fear.  And while we know many things about fear; like that it is "false evidence appearing real", and "the greatest thing to fear is fear itself" and etc. he suggested an alternate way of looking at it.

What he shared today blew my mind because it resonated with my spirit so much.  He said that fear, while a restrictor,  tells you that there is an aspect of yourself that you need to look at and explore. He added, however,  that we are to look at this as a FUN thing!

So, while the normal reaction when confronted with fear is to agree with the fear and avoid whatever you're fearful of;  he suggests you go in the direction you're resistant to.  Additionally, if there are people you admire and would like to be more like, he encourages that you likewise emulate those very characteristics in them that make you uncomfortable - (that you're fearful of).

This new information gave me much to chew. After the class, my sister and I had an opportunity to practice an aspect in the process of manifestation, and I was immediately confronted with a quiet fear while at a Lexus dealership.  This fear showed the presence of a belief system I held, that needed to be explored in a FUN way!  :).

Oh joy.  I was really very surprised because I didn't think this was a problem I still toted!  A sense of inferiority - unworthiness, I mean COME ON?!?  Nonetheless, I had to do what had been suggested in class just an hour ago.

I made myself slowly walk in there, go to each car, admire, look in; I made myself comfortable by causing myself to believe on a molecular level, that I had every right to be there.  It wasn't for me to determine why I felt what I felt, I had to quickly be at home in that environment, and banish and change any thoughts that said otherwise.

What an experience - I had a wonderful time!  My sister ended up test-driving her dream vehicle. I wound up approaching and conversing with another Lexus owner and just being at home in the dealership.  Pretty soon we headed to the Saturn dealership to look at my desired vehicle.  We were fully practicing the last step we'd been given in the manifesting process:  that after identifying the desire and visualizing or imagining the desire;  we pursued that which gave us the highest excitement!  In our cases, to GO and see, touch,  smell, feel, drive and  be the cars.

How and or how they come is not our business.. that is Spirit's job.  But oh, what fun to live like this! Spontaneously, joyously, alive and in the moment;  pursuing that which brings us the greatest excitement!

Create the life you want! Change your situation by changing your thoughts, by changing your self!

© 2009 MP Mokeyane.

I Bargained With Life For a Penny

WHAT do YOU want from Life?

Today I heard someone call this summer the Summer of Death.  This was in reference to the yet additional report of the discovery of  DJ Am's dead body in his apartment.  This news came on the day of Senator Edward "Teddy" Kennedy's memorial service.  Which itself came on the heels of  the long overdue  burial of Michael Jackson, the undisputed musical genius and "King of Pop".

I will not bore with details of the deaths of  poster icon & former "Charlie's Angel" Farrah Fawcett, Informerical king Willie Mays, former NFL quarterback Steve McNair, "Kung Fu" star David Carradine, film maker John Hughes, Johnny Carson's longtime sidekick Ed McMahon, the most trusted man in American News Walter Cronkite.  I am sure I have omitted another name from this mind-boggling list.

All of these deaths have made me look at my life with a larger magnifying glass.  They have pounded into my core that tomorrow is REALLY not promised, so what am I doing today to make my life MATTER, to make it COUNT.

A lot of demons I fight against have to do with me not using the talents God has given me to the best of my ability.  God and I are the only ones too, who truthfully know just what the 'best of my ability' is.

I get sick when I think of  all the dreams I've had and squandered by not going after them,because I was scared or didn't  know how to go about realizing them. I get even sicker, when I pause to think that maybe I hadn't thought my dreams or ME worthy enough to ask for help from someone who may have had better know-how.  No matter the reasons though, the thing is I can't go through Life scared, stagnant and stunted. I am meant to grow, to improve, to thrive, to live abundantly, to be free.

A friend of mine who wanted to challenge and change my mindset once recited this poem to me. Needless to say it  started me on this journey of thinking that maybe MY WAY of thinking wasn't necessarily the most effective. (I'm being so politically correct here) I started thinking that maybe life just wasn't what I had thought it was.   That maybe God hadn't decided that this is what & who I was gonna be, and that I should just be content and go along with my 'lot'.

After being jarred from what I thought had been 'gospel', I continued on the journey, and was blessed to read more, and gradually become open to the idea that I don't know everything.   Imagine my surprise when I encountered the very same poem in Napoleon Hill’s classic book ‘Think and grow Rich’.   So, it is with delight that I share this poem with you.  Prayerfully, it will begin to dislodge and displace some mindsets you may be harboring for no good earthly reason.

I BARGAINED WITH LIFE FOR A PENNY

I bargained with Life for a penny,

And Life would pay no more,

However I begged at evening

When I counted my scanty store.

For Life is a just employer,

He gives you what you ask,

But once you have set the wages,

Why, you must bear the task.

 I worked for a menial’s hire,

Only to learn, dismayed,

That any wage I had asked of Life,

Life would have willingly paid.

What if, your dreams really CAN happen for you?  They can, but not until YOU decide to free your mind. 

© 2009 MP Mokeyane.